To My Fellow Phonies

To my fellow phonies,

You are in good company!

I’ve been doing a lot of reflection in terms of my career path lately. This semester has been much more “involved” than the first year of my post-secondary education, and as a result of that, I’ve been carrying quite a few feelings of self-doubt.

Maya Angelou, a commonly quoted figure in discussions about “imposter’s syndrome.” 

I can’t seem to shake this feeling that I don’t belong in my field of interest. The amount of times I’ve considered changing my major or straight up dropping out of college all together recently has been sad, and the saddest part about these considerations is that it’s not as if they’re coming from a lack of interest. I have a desire to learn and typically enjoy the classes that I take, and yet, here I am constantly questioning whether or not college and I are a compatible match.

I think a big part of it might be because I’m pursuing an arts related degree. I’m majored in film and video production, which means I’m interacting with creative minds on a daily basis. Many of my peers have been doing this since their hands were big enough to hold a camera. Combine that with the fact that most of the material has been entirely new territory for me, and you’ll have me consistently comparing myself to others and making myself feel bad in the process.

The best way I can describe the way I feel is…fraudulent. When I see talent in others, I suddenly lose any potential I have as an individual. I become afraid that others are going to see me as mediocre. I wouldn’t necessarily say I’m feeling jealous or envious of my peers, but rather I feel intense feelings of admiration for them and frustration towards myself for not meeting my standards.

Logically, I know these feelings are somewhat irrational. It seems a bit silly to be comparing myself to more experienced classmates when the whole point of school is to learn what I don’t already know. My education and somebody else’s education are entirely separate entities, so why am I continuously struggling to make that separation?

I decided to do a bit of research about why I might be having these feelings. I wanted to know if these feelings were normal or if it was genuinely time for me to consider a change in career paths. To my surprise, I was able to find quite a few people online that felt the same way that I often do. After a bit of Googling, I was able to finally put a name to what I was feeling: imposter’s syndrome.

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Website Analysis & Content Online: Part II

The piece I’d like to write for this assignment is one that discusses that feeling of feeling like a fraud when you’re new to a field. I would say this is a pretty relevant topic for people my age, because a majority of us are still trying to figure out where we belong in the work force, and even what we’re good at in general. This is a very basic outline I have going, and I intend on expanding over the next few days

  • Why might people feel this way
    •  Feeling threatened vs. empowered by peers
    • Insecurities of skill level and fear of the road ahead
  • How to free one’s self of the feeling
    •  Attempting to focus on one’s self rather than others
    • Accepting that people learn at different paces

Website Analysis and Content Outline:

Medium describes itself as “a place where everyone has a story to share and the best ones are delivered right to you.” It’s a website that covers a variety of topics and gives power to its users by allowing them to choose what kind of content they follow, making it the perfect hub for writers and readers alike.

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